After spending a few months with anxiety, at the age of 28, I was diagnosed with breast cancer. I remember that the ways in which they told me were anything but encouraging, given that in addition to that, they mentioned the side effects of chemotherapy as I could become sterile, all in the same appointment. (Luckily, not all health workers are the same, but I emphasize the lack of tact they had with me, gentlemen, we are people, not numbers) 😔
They transmitted only fear to me, at no time did I hear a word of encouragement, I looked at my mother, she was paralyzed and red, I was somewhere between disconnected and in shock. Thank you that, while the days I was being tested and things were not looking good, my intuition told me that I had to contact a person who had resonated with me when I was experiencing anxiety.
This person had calmed me down selflessly through encouraging calls and audios, he even told me to still let out what I didn't want, not to see it as negative, given that I was going to have an experience from which I was going to learn, and so it was. , my body was expressing a message: I had to fix my life and above all how I treated myself... It resonated a lot with me, intuition is very wise, and until then I considered myself a healthy, athletic girl and anyone who knows me knows that even averse to toxic substances, so I knew that this had more to do with my emotional world and how I perceived life. It was related to what I thought of myself, (I had a low self-concept) I also used to leave myself for last, the opinions of others had a lot of influence on my life, love relationships were usually unbalanced and I cared that others were always well, before myself.
I write this, because I have learned that the disease comes as a message to your life, so that you pay attention... that is, the body warns you with small touches, but if you do not pay attention, the noise is louder, for what you have to take charge of yourself more than ever. ("The body will always reflect how you live in it")
This person that I have previously described is Michaël Hontelé. 😊
He is the one who spoke to me from love and who made me lose my fear. This is how I entered into a process with alternative techniques, as well as deep psycho-emotional work. Thank God for a chemical-free treatment along with emotional support that made me heal, therefore, I will be eternally grateful for having found him just when I needed it most.🙏🏻🧡
It was not at all easy, because in my own family, there were contradictions, because how was I going to leave aside the established traditional method to cure this? (chemotherapy) adding on top of the pressure that the hospital exerted by calling home every day.
Even with fears, given that in these cases the time factor is important, I followed my heart and in a few days I felt the full support of my family, which gave me all the strength to enter into this procedure.
Along the way, obviously not entirely easy, I came face to face with myself, I saw my mother crying and I wondered why I, and at this age, saw my peers making their life plans... (blessed comparisons 🙄) but I said better if I changed it, it would be a reason for me 🤔 and that's when I realized the transformative power that I entered into... well, to leave relationships that were not in tune with me, value those that were even more yes, stop blaming myself for past experiences, learn to appreciate the present that we take for granted and each day is unique, learn not to judge, discover my purpose in life, value myself for transmuting this fear into learning... and Of course, I value my family and friends enormously, even though at first it sounded like Chinese to them, they supported me at all times.
The most important thing and why I write this, is to encourage anyone who is going through a similar situation, to remember the power we have in our lives, when we do not fall into the role of victims but rather creators of our circumstances.
The sooner we start listing all the good things in our lives and when faced with difficulties, take the position of thinking positively, about what I can do and learn from it, your life changes completely and always for the better.
Remember that we are here to enjoy, not to put up with friendships or loves that don't add up and even less feelings of guilt and shame... we are already bombarded with negativity and fear constantly... (television, gossip, envy) and that yes it is the disease.
Life is not that, life is learning to flow with ups and downs and above all align with ourselves without paying attention to what they will say since the most important voice is the one we have in our hearts ❤
To whoever is reading this, I send you a lot of light, wherever you are in your process.